I'm Going On

I'm finally over my cold!!!

I ate healthy for 8 out of 10 days! So proud! Back in the day, I would have eaten healthy for 10 out of 14 days, so I think I'm doing great with 80% goodness.

Yesterday I started the 30 Day Shred, which I got in the mail on Friday, I think it was. It was super tough! 6 minutes in I didn't know if I could do the whole Level 1, but I got through it, and was nearly in tears at the end. (More from happiness than pain - really!)

Today my quads are burning, and my shoulders and chest are really sore, but I'll be at it again with D2 in a little while. Silly me also plans on going to a fitness class with a friend today!

I haven't done my morning meditation where I set myself up for the day, in the past 2 days, so I've got to get back to that as well. Motivation hasn't slipped for me yet, so I better consider it luck, and get visualizing again!

Keep Holding On

I'm so proud! This is day 5/5 for eating healthy and reasonably for me. I've been staying below 1400 calories, and going on walks, and things have been really good.

I've been really hungry at times, but instead of reaching for the nearest bag of cookies and chips, I'm taking time to think about what I really feel like eating. That usually gives me enough time to pick something healthy out for myself.

I'm still sick, and don't feel 100%, but I'm not letting this cold get the best of me!

Break On Through

This morning I think I had a breakthrough. Not in my weight loss, (clearly, the scale has gone up - especially after those cookies yesterday), but in my thinking.

As I was laying in bed this morning, just having woke up, I took a moment to prepare myself for all the things that could tempt me today, and how I will avoid them.

Then I got to thinking, why is it that I have been stuck at this weight for so long? I mean, I lost 60 lbs! Why can't I lose the rest? What does being at this weight do for me? I asked myself.

Well, one thing I always worry about is being judged (who doesn't?). And being at this weight, in my mind, gives people a reason to judge me based on my weight, and not based on the person I really am. If they judge me cause of my weight, they never have a chance to judge my personality, and I would be crushed if someone didn't like me because of who I really am.

So, I've been maintaining this weight (clinging to it), to protect myself from being judged for who I am.

I think I've come a long way with this little issue since I was in high school, but I think a little bit of this thinking still remains.

Being aware of this is the first step toward breaking this habit of thought. I'll have to do some more thinking on this.

This Is How We Do It

This is my second attempt at a blog, and my hundredth attempt at weight loss (at least).

I feel so hopeless that I didn't even make a New Year's resolution this year, except the be more positive. So, in sticking with my resolution I am making my 100th attempt, and doing this right!

I have a gym membership, and new running shoes in hand, and though a recent back (re)injury has had me out for two weeks, I am very ready to get back to the gym! Right now I could come up with at least 100 reasons as to why it's difficult to get to the gym and work out, or eat right, but those are what have gotten me here.

I have literally been trying to lose weight for ten years! 60 pounds have released me from their grasp, but 50 more are holding on for dear life. And they should be afraid! Cause I am going to shake them ALL off!

Tomorrow I want to get in the gym for two hours, and I am going in, even if I have to force myself off the computer chair and though the doors. That's actually the hardest part. Once I get the ball rolling, it's so much easier.

My goal for the rest of the night is not to eat any more JUNK! NO!